Mi intento de novela

Soy una cobarde, lo admito... :P

Me 'escudo' o en todo caso me atrinchero en las historias cortas (aunque de un tiempo a la fecha cada vez me cuesta más ajustarme al tope de 1000 o 1200 palabras) y voy dándole largas a lo que llamo mi 'intento de novela'. Años van y años vienen (muchos años). Y quizás por eso, los cinco personajes principales: dos hermanos, dos chicas y un chico, tienen la terrible facilidad de 'apersonarse' cada vez con mayor insistencia. Anoche mismo, mientras veíamos por enésima vez la película Appaloosa, tuve que garabatear algo sobre un personaje secundario sin poder evitarlo y ojo, que yo no soy de las que pueden escribir con 'ruido de fondo'  :P

Creo que este será EL año de mi intento de novela. Estoy como Galadriel: lo percibo en el aire y en el agua, hahaha. Ná. Es que este sería el vigésimo aniversario del momento en que sitúo mi historia que abarcará entre 1995 y 1996. Y aunque no hice propósitos de año nuevo, sí que estoy dispuesta a por fin terminar de escribirla.

Mientras, como lo único que puedo escuchar es música que me 'ambiente', dejo aquí uno de los temas recurrentes en las playlist que escucho:

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Come with me into the darkness

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Inside the devil

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ijnIoqCm5yU

"Inside the Devil" - Nosferatu

If ya come inside I can't help outside
You can't cry but you won't need to
Baby has found a way to surround
Surround herself in sorrow
If ya come inside I can't help outside
You should learn and God you'll need to
Baby has found the way to survive yeah 

Baby has found the solace
Get down, down, down inside the Devil
Get down, down, down inside the sun
If ya pick up things that don't belong
Something you will need to borrow
Your baby has found her God above
Yeah baby until tomorrow
If ya come inside I won't help outside
You can't cry You don't love
Baby has found her God above
Yeah baby don't need tomorrow
Get down, down, down inside the Devil
Get down, down, down inside the sun
I guess I know
Come see the fish on the waves
Call it fun I don't know
If your wish or desire should take hold and bury you
Under the earth
Under the earth
Under the earth

Del álbum "Legend" (1994)

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Cuando se trata de mostrar en plenitud el sonido característico del Gothic Rock, siempre acude a mí la banda británica Nosferatu :D

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Borderline

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fGZ3MBYOmUs

Borderline - The 69 Eyes

Did you ever try to understand
What goes inside of a man
That used to hold your hand
Did you ever try to understand
What goes inside of a man
That gives his love in your hands
Some nights we die
Some nights we cry
Don’t push your love over the borderline
Some nights we die
Some nights we cry
Don’t push your love over the borderline
Don’t push your love
Over the borderline
Don’t push your love
Over the line
Don’t you push your love
Did you ever try to understand
What goes inside of a man
That used to hold your hand
Did you ever try to understand
What goes inside of a man
That gives his heart in your hands
Some nights we die
Some nights we cry
Don’t push your love over the borderline
Some nights we die
Some nights we cry
Don’t push your love over the borderline
Don’t push your love
Over the borderline
Don’t push your love
Over the line
Don’t you push your love

Del álbum "X" (2012)

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Algunas noches morimos, algunas noches lloramos...

A treinta días para mi cumpleaños número 43  ;-)

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Haunting

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wB3FWN8OKY4

"The Haunting" - Pretentious Moi?

She turns to face
One more
It might be the locked door
She wants to stay
No more the words of yesterday
Too much time to kill
All reason gone
But the haunting
Sense that we might see
All that is left is the will that she wants to be

Without a home to hide
Within the walls remember
The stories you can't read
Meet the monsters that we might have been
The safest words unsaid
Behind the guarded anger
Sees a future lying dead
All that I wanted

Two eyes cut glass and wide
Three is the other
Forgone my future lies
One on another

It’s time to go
Ignore the voice from the corner
She cannot move
She cannot look without burning
Drive them all away
Don’t make us see what we can't touch
What she whispers now
All that I want in the world is to work out how

Two eyes cut glass and wide
Three is the other
Forgone my future lies
One to another

 Count the victories gone before
Speak your mind
And I am with you
Count your blessings
Turn to go
Count the times
Any you'll remember
It is past and we are old
You are young
But ever distant
You are nothing
I am sold
Count the ways
And you'll remember

Del álbum "Pretentious Moi?" (2010)

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Heartland

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OflXjk2AoKk

"Heartland" - Sisters of Mercy

Lay me down the long white line
Leave the sirens far behind me
Paint my name in black and gold
My heart my flame my heart my road
My heartland fade across the line
Heartland sing the faces shining
In the failing failing failing
Heartland make the places mine
Clearly now the past mistakes
The giant steps we had to take
The path that ever promise made to
Die in dream dissolve and fade
My heartland heartland heartland [4x]
Behind the lines a face that glimmers
Still looking for a face that shines
In the promise in the places

 I'm going to make them mine
My heartland heartland heartland [40x] 

 

 

 

Lado B del sencillo "Temple of love" (1983)

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Sobre la tierra de mi corazón, reposa la mentira, las tormentas y la desolación.

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So I dance on the graves where the hallowed fall

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqTbnG9vHy4

"Wasteland" - The Mission

I still believe in God,
but God no longer believes in me.
There's a crystal view from my window
And I can see years to come
I live for the burn and the sting of pleasure
I live for the sword, the steel, and the gun
I can tear down the walls, storm the barricades
Run to the place where the frightened crawl
Desire lurks beyond good and evil
So I dance on the graves where the hallowed fall
Over this land
All over this wasteland
Over this land
All over this wasteland
You can touch, but please keep your distance
You're innocent and pure and with no shame

 The spirit is willing, and the flesh is craved
You tease and you taunt with the pleasure of pain
Over this land
All over this wasteland
Over this land
All over this wasteland
Heaven and Hell, I know them well
But I haven't yet made my choice
I'm feeling scared 'cause I'm shouting loud
And no one can hear my voice
I'm walking the tightwire, can't look down
Strung out high, above you all
Fateful wind blows through this land
Howls my name, heralds my fall
Over this land
All over this wasteland
Over this land
All over this wasteland

Del álbum "God's Own Medicine" (1986)

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XX Aniversario

En 2014 se cumple el XX aniversario de tres cosas cuasi fundamentales para muchos de nosotros :)  Primero, el estreno de The Crow de Alex Proyas que fue el 11 de mayo, después el primer concierto internacional en plan darkie en el DF que fue el de London After Midnight el 23 de junio y por último, el estreno de Interview with the vampire de Neil Jordan que fue el 11 de noviembre.
Que veinte años no es nada ;-)

 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6UCqYrHFzdI

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aZVZ0dmQ3I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDH7P0qvSMU

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The graveyard scene

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qxqq5vahHKk

"She's in parties" - Bauhaus

Learning lines in the rain
Special effects by Loonatik and Drinks
The graveyard scene
The golden years

She's in parties
It's in the can (twice)

Freeze frame screen kiss
Hot heads under silent wigs
Fall guys tumble on the cutting room floor
Look-a-likes fall on the cutting room door

She's in parties
It's in the can (twice)

Learning lines in the rain
Special effects by Loonatik and drinks
Freeze frame, screen kiss, hot heads, lights and power
It's patently obvious

She's in parties
It's in the can (twice)

Hot lines under a rain of drum
Cigarette props in action
Dialogue dub, now heres the rub
She's acting her reaction

She's in parties
It's in the can

Del álbum "Burning from inside" (1983)

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Oscura elegancia, oda a la noche femenina y letal.

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The Devil and the woman in one

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WK3BparQahs

"Siren" (Hellfire Remix) - Nosferatu

She stands on the water on the lake of souls
The woman dressed in black,
She stands with her hair in the storm,
And her arms raised to the sky.
She wakes on the water on the lake in the forest,
The Devil and the woman in one,
She siren stares,
and siren sings.
And she's calling.
So I walked to her grave where the sea meets the sand,
And the moon was shining,
And the rain from the storm comes soaking through,
And I looked to her for the things she knew,
And she was calling.
Come to me.
She said,
It's time to face your master,
give me your soul,
Take down your cross for me and I'll throw it to the sky,
She painted heaven, a picture red and black,
Her sweetness, and for all our hearts,
And she's calling.
She gave me revelations,
Delivered me,
Waves drew back and this ship came crashing in.
And she's calling

Del álbum "Legend" (1994)

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Nosferatu es una de esas bandas que inmediatamente vienen a tu mente cuando necesitas definir el 'sonido darkie', el estilo musical e inclusive la lírica  :)

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Inamourada, what are you after?

 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38ARJrWDYYw

 

 

"Inamourada" - London After Midnight

So much to give.
I touch you like never before.
With you I know I'll always forgive.
'Cause no one else can give me more.

Inamourada.
What are you after?
You know it really matters to me.

And I know there are times.
When all I feel is pain.
Outside wherever are to find.
You said you'd always feel the same.
You said you'd never be to blame.

Inamourada.
What are you after?
It really matters to me.

Inamourada.
What are you after?
It really matters to me.

Inamourada.
I hear you laughter.
And you'll be laughing.
At me.

Del álbum "Selected Scenes From The End of The World" (re-lease Europe 2003)

 

 

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London After Midnight tiene un sitio especial en el soundtrack de mi vida. El primer concierto que dieron en México DF en 1994, fue el primero al que asistí en plan darkie y fueron una verdadera revelación en todos los sentidos  ;-) 

 

Cumplen con aquello de que no son profetas en su tierra (Los Angeles) pero en el extranjero los adoran a pesar de que tienen escaso material y que apenas han hecho un par de giras por Europa, por ejemplo. 

Para mí, son la banda darkie por excelencia: desde actitud, estética, letras y música que además nunca se han casado con una tendencia específica. Son quienes son y punto.

Inamourada es un tema que se publicó hasta 2003 pero no suena nada diferente a aquellos años cuando descubrimos a LAM. Y siempre tiene la virtud de remontarme a ese tiempo y de condensar en apenas cuatro minutos, toda esa etapa de mi vida :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

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All Night Long

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_Qzd3OnbL4

"All Night Long" - Peter Murphy


When the night is closing
Eyes are running wild
Then I hear you humming
All night long

The sign I see it
Tell me am I true
All I need from you is
All I see

This city's paved with cold
Playboys buying fun
Seems there is no hunter left
Without his hunting gun

Can you feel the light
The air is wild open
Oh you see the light it's coming through
It's there in the distance
Always offered to me
Always coming over a hill

Oh your see-saw smile
Lasts me all night long
Like a siren's curl
When the night is long

Now come hold my hand
No bad vibe hearts
Hold my hand you know
This journey could be long

Yeah the seasons come in
All the nights are woven
All the nights we'll see them through
Ahh no hundred men now
Would dare cut into us
We'll go on and see it through

Belle,
Une rose qui a joue son role
Mon Miroir,
Mon clef d'or
Mon cheval
Et mon gant sont les cinq secrets de ma puissance
Je voulais livrer
Il vous suffira de mettre ce gant
A votre main droite
Il vous transportera ou vous desirez l'etre

When the night has come in
Your eyes are running wild
Then I hear you humming over
All night long

Yeah the sign I see it
Yeah the times I see it
All I need to know from you
Is all I see

Can you feel the light
The air is wild, open
Oh you see the light,
It's coming through
It's there in the distance
Always offered to me
Always coming over a hill
Yeah the seasons come in
All the nights are woven
All the nights we'll see them through
Ahh no hundred men now
Would dare cut into us
We'll go on and see it through

Del álbum "Love Hysteria" (1988)

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Escuchar este tema me remonta, directo y sin escalas, a otra época, a otras sensaciones, a otra vida... Pero esta oleada siempre es grata, alegre, aunque no deja de tener su puntito de nostalgia :)

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I want more

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDuW3NvjqJY

"More" - Sisters of Mercy

Some people get by
With a little understanding
Some people get by
With a whole lot more
I don't know
Why you gotta be so undemanding
One thing I know
I want more
I want more
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
D'you get scared to feel so much?
To let somebody touch you?
So hot, so cold, so far so out of control
Hard to come by, and harder to hold
Some people get by
With a little understanding
Some people get by
With a whole lot more
I don't know
Why you gotta be so undemanding
I want more
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
There are parts of me that don't get nervous
Not the parts that shake
You won't get what you deserve
You are what you take
Learning to cry for fun and profit
I'm not done yet
Counterfeit dollars or the English zloty
Anything I can get
Some people get by
With a little understanding
Some people get by
With a whole lot more
I don't know
Why you gotta be so undemanding
One thing I know
I want more
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
All the love that you can get
All the love
That I can't get to...

Del álbum "Vision Thing" (1990)

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Con sus eternas gafas oscuras y en esa época con una melena como la que lucía en los primeros años de la banda. Con esa actitud despreciativa y directa: 'Te gusto o no te gusto, conmigo no van las medias tintas'. Un temazo correspondiente a ese álbum que contenían los últimos temas con los que daba la bienvenida a una nueva década que no lo trataría tan bien. Aunque sin duda demostraría su enorme influencia en un género musical que dice detestar en cuanto se lo mencionan :P

Mr. Andrew Eldritch, la verdadera y única alma mater de Sisters of Mercy.

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Raised by bats ;-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUJZ4n0NZ20&feature=youtu.be

"Raised by bats" - Voltaire

Here at home in this steeple
Made of chrome, above a city of steel,
I’ve chosen bats over people
‘Cause I never did like the way humans made me feel.

So we sleep all day and we rise at night
And we spread our wings and take into the skies.
And when the people look up and stare
And say, “Why you gotta be like that?”
I just look them in the eye and tell them
I was raised by bats!

When I was young, I was feeble
And it stung when they pushed me down.
I was so hated by these people,
That I knew I had to do what I could to get out of that town.

So I ran away to this sacred place
And was taken in by creatures of the night.
Now when the people all stop and stare
And say, “Why you gotta dress like that?”
I just look them in the eye and tell them
I was raised by bats!

When the people all stop and stare
And say, “Why you gotta be like that?”
I just look them in the eye and tell them
I was raised by bats.

Those dark days seem far away
I've risen to a better place
So do like me, follow the dream like that.
Just throw your old life away
And get raised by bats!
So we sleep all day and we rise at night
And we spread our wings and take into the skies.
We do it all our way, live our lives like that
And there’s no one here to fill our heads with lies.

And when the people all stop and stare
And say, “Why you gotta be like that?”
When the people all stop and stare
And say, “Why you gotta dress like that?”
When the people all stop and stare
And say, “Why you gotta be like that?”
I just punch them in the eye and I bite them on the thigh
And I kick them in the ass where the sun don’t shine.
I look them in the eye and tell them
I was raised by bats!

I just look them in the eye and tell them
I was raised by bats!
I was raised by bats!
I was raised by bats! 

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Genial como todo lo que hace este cubanico darkie ;-) En plena semana se festejos cumpleañeros, ea, ea xD

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Diciembre

Diciembre no es de ninguna manera mi mes favorito. Y el 28 tendrá sentido el tatuaje que me hice en junio pasado en la muñeca derecha con un nombre y una fecha que este año cumple dos décadas. Con el nombre de la mujer más importante de mi vida. Pero, la vida sigue, tengo una familia que merece todo mi amor y toda mi entrega :)

Vamos a empezar diciembre y qué mejor que con un tema que surge de la primera recopilación que Projekt Records hizo con versiones de villancicos clásicos realizadas por diversas bandas de Darkwave :)

Aquí Faith and The Muse con A Winter Wassail que surge de Excelsis Vol. 1 A Dark Nöel editado en 1995.

 

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eo_SfLZoVJY

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When the night has come in

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_Qzd3OnbL4

"All Night Long" - Peter Murphy

When the night is closing
Eyes are running wild
Then I hear you humming
All night long

The sign I see it
Tell me am I true
All I need from you is
All I see

This city's paved with cold
Playboys buying fun
Seems there is no hunter left
Without his hunting gun

Can you feel the light
The air is wild open
Oh you see the light it's coming through
It's there in the distance
Always offered to me
Always coming over a hill

Oh your see-saw smile
Lasts me all night long
Like a siren's curl
When the night is long

Now come hold my hand
No bad vibe hearts
Hold my hand you know
This journey could be long

Yeah the seasons come in
All the nights are woven
All the nights we'll see them through
Ahh no hundred men now
Would dare cut into us
We'll go on and see it through

Belle,
Une rose qui a joue son role
Mon Miroir,
Mon clef d'or
Mon cheval
Et mon gant sont les cinq secrets de ma puissance
Je voulais livrer
Il vous suffira de mettre ce gant
A votre main droite
Il vous transportera ou vous desirez l'etre

When the night has come in
Your eyes are running wild
Then I hear you humming over
All night long

Yeah the sign I see it
Yeah the times I see it
All I need to know from you
Is all I see

Can you feel the light
The air is wild, open
Oh you see the light,
It's coming through
It's there in the distance
Always offered to me
Always coming over a hill
Yeah the seasons come in
All the nights are woven
All the nights we'll see them through
Ahh no hundred men now
Would dare cut into us
We'll go on and see it through

Del álbum "Love Hysteria" (1988)

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 Increíble como menos de cinco minutos pueden contener tantas sensaciones y tantos recuerdos de años atrás. Que menos de cinco minutos sean capaces de transportarte a esa otra vida que parece que no volverá. 

Nostalgia encarada con una sonrisa un poco triste...

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I'm being blinded, blinded by the light that pours from you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rqobfnGjxA

"The Light That Pours From You" - The Mission

I still remember the very first kiss
And the blood on the sheets
And like a start
That shoots through the night
We crash and burn in the heat
There's never any shadow if you don't have light
The darkest hour comes before dawn
And heaven know the colour you bring to everything
And love will always defeat brawn...

You blaze like the neon in a Tokyo night
You dazzle and you shine so bright
You burn like the sun and I can't look away
I'm being blinded by the light that pours from you...

And to be tempted by hunger for the flesh
No refuge from our appetites
And beauty comes from always deep within
It's easy to be tricked by the light
I don't have to tell you always how I feel
Some things are better left unsaid
For temples are built in union and faith
Let's tame your wild stallions instead...

You blaze like the neon in a Las Vegas night
You dazzle and you shine so bright
You burn like the sun and I can't look away
I'm being blinded, blinded by the light that pours from you...

I still remember the very fist time
My eyes were seared by you
And from that blinding moment all I've wanted to do
Is lose myself deep in you...

You blaze like the neon in a Tokyo night
You dazzle and you shine so bright
You burn like the sun and I can't look away
I'm being blinded, blinded by the light that pours from you...

Del álbum "Aura" (2001)

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Comenzaba un nuevo milenio y The Mission lanzaba el álbum Aura. The Light That Pours From You es un tema que conserva la esencia de Wayne Hussey y cía. pero al mismo tiempo la presenta fresca y renovada ;-)

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Up and away, where angels dread to tread

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zo9f395RjTQ

"Over the hills and far away" - The Mission

A fleeting glance upon your silken face Medusa
And you can turn my heart and soul to stone
Thank you for the memory, the lasting first impression
Thank you for the steel, that cuts to the bone
Over the hills and far away there's a place that's paradise
Where we walked, walked, walked, walked, walked on in
Talked, talked, talked, talked of sharing dreams
Up and away, where angels dread to tread
Brave rolling thunder and snow storms and pie in the sky
Tangled skein of the marriage made in heaven
Oh why did you, why did you let all the flowers die
Over the hills and far away there's a place that's heaven
Where yours was the first kiss and yours was the last kiss
Over the hills and far away there's a place that's paradise
Where we walked, walked, walked, walked, walked on in
Talked, talked, talked, talked of sharing dreams
Higher and higher with treason, clear reason, are all men guilty?
The sound of laughter ringing true, shining through your childlike eyes
Sacred hearts, epitaphs, touched by winds of change
Oh why did you, how could you let all the flowers die?
Over the hills and far away there's a place that's heaven
Where yours was the first kiss and yours was the last kiss
Over the hills and far away there's a place that's heaven
Where yours was the first kiss, the everlasting kiss
Over the hills and far away there's a place that's paradise
Where we walked, walked, walked, walked, walked on in
Talked, talked, talked, talked of sharing dreams

Del álbum "The First Chapter" (1987)

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A pesar de que tiene el mismo nombre que un tema de Led Zeppelin y de Gary Moore que ha sido versionado por varios artistas, este temazo de The Mission no tiene relación alguna y es original de Wayne Hussey, cantante y alma mater de esta genial banda ;-)

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Just one last kiss before raising hell

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lwf7DmM2TGM

"Beyond the pale" - The Mission

Cold still waters running deep
Pale before the eyes
Ravaged
By the hands that feed
Thunder clouds the skies
Drifting with the tide
Floating with the stream
The howling winds have gathered strength
From a whisper to a scream
Sell me down the river
And out to sea
Cast me adrift and set me to sail
Just one last kiss before raising hell
Beyond the pale
Beyond the pale
Heed to Neptune's calling deceived in fable and lore
Learn from treacherous bibles
Of murder, hate and war
Searching for the tears
In an ocean of rain
The yearning of the raging sea beckons once again
Sell me down the river
And out to sea
Cast me adrift and set me to sail
Just one last kiss before raising hell
Beyond the pale
Beyond the pale
Gathering of the storm
And the winds are blowing wild
Sweeping over cross and creed, country, colour and child
Mother nature cries for love
Her children lost at sea
And as the waves take me away
Say a prayer for liberty
Sell me down the river
And out to sea
Cast me adrift and set me to sail
Just one last kiss before raising hell
Beyond the pale
Beyond the pale
Beyond the pale
Beyond the pale

Del álbum "Children" (1988)

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I could not forget you when you're Rosary Blue

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-H7jiSHb98

"Rosay Blue" - The 69 Eyes feat. Kat Von D

I'm under the water just listening
I've been on the fast line 'til you came in
But now things are different, it's all upside down
And I'm all around
I'm trying to go back and turn it around
Oh, I could not forget you
I could not forget you
I could not forget you when you're Rosary Blue
I could not forget you
I could not forget you
I could not forget you, you're Rosary Blue
I'm trying to forgive you
God, I'm lonely here if that's what you're hoping
I've been the last one since the world began
But now things are different, it's all upside down
And I'm all around
I'm trying to reach that and turn it around
Oh, I could not forget you
I could not forget you
I could not forget you when you're Rosary Blue
I could not forget you
I could not forget you
I could not forget you, you're Rosary Blue
I tried to show you
I tried to convince you
But no words can ever tell you
Rosary Blue
I tried to forget you
I tried to forgive you
But the words could never tell you
How much I still miss you
How much I still miss you
No one could ever tell you
How much I still miss you
My Rosary Blue
My Rosary Blue
How much I still miss you
You're Rosary Blue
How Much I still miss you
Rosary Blue

Del álbum "X" (2012)

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